I am not sure how it happened...I grew up as a Christian in a Lutheran church but along the way in life I forgot all about my upbringing in the church and even it seems about God. I married a man who was into drinking and drugs which ensued daily and weekly drama that would make anyone's head swirl. Somehow I got sucked into his dark world whether I wanted to or not, every one of his actions affected how I responded to my world around me.
God was definitely not part of our marriage nor our lives. I realize now what a serious mistake it was not putting God center of our lives and for the first time in my life darkness surrounded me. Abuse became part of the equation...that comes along with drinking and drugs. How can someone forget about God? When your struggling day by day just to survive your situation you tend to forget about family, friends and yes sometimes even God.
How can you find your way back to God?
Ask God to help you find your way back to him;
Psalm 139:23-24: “Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
John 13:14, Jesus promises: “Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.”
Sometimes we have to work at reconnecting with God which means searching and reading the scriptures. Make a pledge to read one scripture a day, this will draw you closer to God and lets not forget about prayer. God wants to hear from you daily, just as a friend likes to hear from you God wants you to be friends with him too. I talk with God daily as if I would talk with a friend, in fact he is now my best friend and this is the way its suppose to be. Without God center in our lives, our lives could go wayward onto a different path, one that could lead to darkness.
Seek the LORD while He may be found; Call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way And the unrighteous man his thoughts; And let him return to the LORD, And He will have compassion on him, And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon.” – Isaiah 55:6-7 (NIV)
God bless you and may the Lord have mercy on you Amen~
